I Think Again

I think again of yester’ year 

I think of what I had and feared 

I miss the ease I had back then

How easy it was to strive and win

I miss the house my little room

I miss the joys ended too soon

I miss the family miss the friends 

But all things must come to an end 

I walk this hall one last time

Before it crumbles down fine
The smell is such I cannot abide 

And so my emotions again ride

I hate this house and all it’s rooms 

It’s events are nothing but tombs

The fun between hunger and fear

God’s assurance oh so near

I hate that kitchen oh so small 

It ceiling low, not very tall

No room to work within the walls

And pest control needed a call

The living room so full of junk

No space for life I often thunk

My home indeed so very small

But I miss the house where I grew tall

My room indeed had not a door 

It fell on me as it broke before 

The vent as well was not well 

My child hood home a living hell

The life I had was never fine

The food simple of which we dined

The work was constant without doubt 

To my room I often would pout 

The sands of time cover the past
The sorrow now will not last
I miss it only cuz life’s so hard 
The grass was greener little card

I miss my home I had back then
My spirit’s want can never win
I must press on to better days
Not be trapped in my yester ways

And so I walk this hall once more 
Forsake my wants and close the door 
I will smile at a brighter day
As I forge my trail in a new way